My Own World

2011-11-30T01:02:00.002+08:00

Ahh.. Its been awhile I listen to this kind of songs. A song that reminds me of korean drama. I'm not sure whether this is one of the theme song for one of the korean drama, but it sounds like one. Lol. I miss those time when I used to addicted to these lovey dovey perfect romantic fairy tale drama. They always brings me into the show where I imagined someday my life would be somewhat like that. Well, seriously, reality check, nobody's life would be like those show. Anyhow, since I'm already finished my pre-U course, catching up with some nice dramas would be one of my to-do-list of course! ;)

Enjoy the song!

Amelia

Reality

2011-08-27T01:35:00.002+08:00

You cannot always stick to one person, one friend forever.

People move on as time goes by.

There's no guarantee that the other party will think like you.

So, pick yourself up and look for others as journey continues.

Life goes on.

Amelia

2011-06-06T22:40:00.002+08:00

Lose control. Again.

Improvement.

Need more.

Faith.

Just the beginning.

Amelia

2011-06-03T23:57:00.001+08:00

Hope it is worth it!

365!

2011-05-30T15:06:00.004+08:00

Had emotional-roller-coaster week before The Day.

But we made it through.

Went through a lot of experiences in a year.

Hope we'll get better.

Continue to learn from one another.

Happy 1st Anniversary!

I love U~

Amelia

2011-05-24T03:22:00.002+08:00

I really cannot do this anymore.

God, spare me a road.

I don't want to do this anymore.

I don't want to do this for the rest of my life.

2011-05-22T00:14:00.001+08:00

I really can't take it anymore.

I'm dying...

Someone please help me..

Amelia

The season is here~

2011-05-20T23:10:00.005+08:00

SHOPPING ATTACK!

AHH! wanna shop so badly at this moment!

due to time and money factor..

I can't!

Since when I'm become a shopaholic? O.o

Maybe it's really time to change my wardrobe. =p

Still thinking about the shirt I saw yesterday.

>.<

Amelia

2011-05-16T18:18:00.003+08:00

When exam came,

when stress came,

when there's no good food,

when there's no good sleep,

when stupid problems came in this time,

what will happen??

Virus visits u!

Great.

This is the n time for this year!

and its always during exam period!

peak season??? =_=

2011-05-04T13:13:00.002+08:00

Days are getting nearer..

And what am I doing now?

Blogging!

Miserable month ended

and here comes Stressful month.

>< !

God Bless Me man~!

Amelia

DAMMIT!

2011-04-14T22:01:00.002+08:00

SCREW YOU APPLIED MATHS!

SCREW YOU!

IF IT WASN'T YOU, I'VE GOT MY 'A' NOW!

WORSE WEEK!

Amelia

be grateful

2011-04-02T00:57:00.002+08:00

Just wanna say,

Thank You Lord for all the blessings.

It's been a blurry night for me today and I have no idea what's got into me.

I got in the wrong lane, paid parking fee without parking my car in parking lot, bang into something while reversing, and the worst of all, I nearly bang somebody.

Yup, nearly. I was thinking of something or I was dreaming? Hmm..

Nvm, luckily I snap out of it few seconds before I really bang onto the car in front. Phew..

Thank You Father for protections! He is indeed awesome. =)

Amelia

2011-03-26T01:02:00.002+08:00

Okay.. I'm really getting more and more lazy to blog now, maybe I'll abandon my blog soon. I was kinda excited and have the ohm to write something in blog this afternoon, but now I've lost it. O well, at least I'm writing and crapping here now. X)

I had started my AS trials this wednesday and 2 more days to go. The first day was maths and General Paper. It doesn't really ok actually especially when it comes to my applied maths. I don't know what's going on with me that day, was quite blur during that 1 hour 15 min. Thursday's chemistry was ok and today's biology was not ok because lacking of time. Well, I know I won't be getting a very nice results again but the weird thing is I'm not feeling any worry about this. Even I don't have enough time to finish my biology paper today, I did not feel any nervous when the invigilator says time's up. Hmm... is this a good thing or a bad thing? I wonder...

Yesterday night went for 'One Love' Easter event organised by TARC CF. Praise the Lord, it was an awesome one. The amount of people is more than what I imagine, and the atmosphere is great. He is there with us that night to move and touch our hearts. The sketch is awesome. We had good testimonies from our guest artists. The pastor had also share with us Revelation 3. It is a great reminder how generous God is, how God has love us in the way we cannot imagine.

Since the beginning of March, after the second CF meeting, something, somehow has just strikes me, made me to make a move to start reading the bible and pray everyday, or at least try to read it almost everyday. At that time, it really feels good while reading the bible and starts to love Jesus more and more each day. Not that I don't love Him at all before that, but I don't feel the love of Him deep enough to make me realize how awesome He is, how He loves me. Until now, I'm still learning to love Him, to appreciate Him, to serve Him little by little each day. Thinking of Him everyday to remind myself I have a Father who loves me very much even if no one here loves or likes me. Praying to Him to draw me closer to Him each day to know my Father. Sometimes I am happy when I know that He answered my prayer. I used to get very upset and sometimes felt angry whenever I mention about my life here in KL, because my life here sucks, studies, environment, people here all are not good. Overall nothing here is good for me and I hated here. Not to say everything is good right now, I'm still having quite a dull life here, but now I realize God had put me here with a purpose, that is learn to love. Most of the time the people that I hang out with are non-christians. Sometimes I'm really really angry whenever someone says things about us christians, about our Father. I used to be one of them. Not agreeing or accepting an offer is ok for me, but saying something that has cross the line, I just couldn't accept. I don't think it is funny to joke about us christians. I got very angry with these people and felt like hitting them in their face. But in Matthew 5:44, I learn. Learning to love God like how He loves me is hard. Learn to love your enermies is 10 or 100 times harder.

Amelia

FEAR

2011-03-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

It's the fear that keeps on bugging me.

It's the enormous, infinity fear.

Like in Mark 4:40,

He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”

I answer, "No. I do not have it right now. Forgive me."

Amelia

Zero

2011-02-28T23:37:00.002+08:00

I ain't perfect.

I ain't good.

but why still me?

Don't you ever feel tired, frustrated and giving up?

Amelia

Junctions

2011-02-28T01:46:00.002+08:00

You have your own way, I have mine.

You have your own thoughts, I have mine.

It's never the same.

What shall I do??

This is what I always get on special day.

C-O-N-F-L-I-C-T-S

NO-happy 9th monthsary!

Amelia

happy birthday..to me

2011-02-21T23:56:00.006+08:00

Only me n u this 2011.

It wasn't a big celebration.

It wasn't the birthday I imagined too.

There's no others friends around me.

but somehow...

I felt blessed with you n the two dinners.

THANK YOU!

X* X) X*

I'm 19!

Amelia

in needs

2011-02-18T15:43:00.001+08:00

Life.Spirit.Energy

I need all those desperately here.

Amelia

Heart

2011-01-23T17:45:00.004+08:00

Read a very interesting and meaningful thing.

Thanks a lot Anjoe, for a good reminder.

[ "I think over the many years of dating and break-ups, if there’s anything I learnt about loving someone and being in a relationship, it’s patience.

It’s not about how sweet you can be, how much gifts you give, or even how much you’re willing to do for your loved one. It’s about how patient and understanding you can be when things aren’t going right, when someone does something that makes you angry, sad, or hurt.

If I think over every single argument I’ve had in the past, and the break ups, most of the time, if only one side could be more patient and understanding, everything could’ve been prevented.

It’s actually really easy to treat someone nicely, it’s easy to do a lot of sweet things for someone, it’s easy to shower someone with love and gifts. But it’s so hard, so hard, to be understanding and patient when things aren’t going the way you want. It took me so many years to try to learn this, and even now I can’t say it’s easy, but I know I’m trying.

In this relationship, I lose in almost every argument I have with my girlfriend. :) Not because I have no sense of principle or opinion. It’s because I think that for almost every argument, it’s not really important who wins, deep inside, most of us all know what’s right and wrong. It’s just at the heat of the moment, we become stubborn, or we let our emotions take over our logic and we argue. In the past, every time I win an argument, after it’s all over, I know deep inside who was right and who was wrong. If you care and love someone, try to just let little meaningless things go, sometimes even let the big things slide… just a piece of my mind :) " ]

It's true indeed patience is needed when things doesn't go right in a relationship. A lot of times I wanted to just give up so badly because I can't stand every second of the pain I'm having, it is always hurtful even its just a small arguement, but because of love I don't want to just end it that way. Thank You for holding me all the way. Hope this reminds you as well. I am never ready to let you go.

I love you and miss you bi bi. Rawr!

Amelia

They always visits me

2011-01-21T00:22:00.002+08:00

People always thought that I don't have any pressure from the big ones

Just because I didn't get scolded by them always

But in fact I do have it

And its as worse as any others

=((

In this period of time

Besides the needs of prayersss

I need HUGSSS too!

real hugsss from you you you you you you n you...

Amelia

Word of The day

2011-01-17T23:55:00.000+08:00

Learn a new word!

RAWR! XD

Amelia

2010

2011-01-02T23:43:00.021+08:00

2010 has been a very challenging year for me, well.. for others as well from what I heard. Indeed each year is getting more and more challenging for me. Let's review again what have I been to in 2010. For those who are not interested you can just close your tab now, whereas for those who want to know sit back and enjoy cause its gonna be a long.. long post. ;)

January

-Hmm.. don't recall anything. Just some gathering with fellow 5S8 classmates, Miao and Kim's birthday.

February

Muahaha.. Its mua month! =)

-First is busy-ing with Bernice and Shireen's farewell!

-Then CNY visitations!

-Then mua birthday!

March

-AMC Sport's Day

Just went to support our juniors

-SPM Result Day!!

Basically I just scream after I got my results =D Happy Day!

-Change Your World Concert

-Janice's Farewell

April

-Being volunteer in Day Break

-Salvation Army Visitation

-Grandma Past Away

May

-Mua Farewell

-Went Gunung Lang

-Started my college life

These are some of my classmates

-First outing I had in KL is celebrate Cikgu's birthday

-BBQ at Taman Rimba

-Started a relationship with Mr. Low.

June

-Dino's Birthday

The cake is so so so nice and delicious! Thanks a lot to Liyen again!

July

-Korean Praise

-Had first test in TARC, results were unbelievable.

August

-Went Broga Hill

September

-Vivien's Farewell

-Had a gathering with some friends during 1 week holiday

-Celebrate Tang Lung Festival with YP

-Second Test, results were also more unbelievable.

-Celebrate Foo's(Friend in TARC) Birthday in Genting!

October

-Celebrate Glenn's birthday

-Do Bio Assignment(video) with whole class

-Attended Hostel CG

-Celebrate Shaun and friend's birthday in Port Dickson and Malacca

November

-Final Exam! Results CANNOT be seen!

-Attended Kok Ming and Wan Wai's Wedding =)

December

-First time help out in Children's Holiday Club

-Youth Camp

Gathering with besties after everyone came back for holidays! Almost everyone.

-Christmas

-New Year Eve Countdown

And some others I don't really recall. It was a crazy year and I hope this year will be able to handle it better! Especially in my studies, need to be serious and work even harder. It was really sad and discouraging when I heard some people left A-level at this beginning of the semester. Pray that God will lead me through this whole year. =)

*I'm finally done!

Amelia

Another month

2010-12-27T01:00:00.000+08:00

Aww..felt bad and guilty..

When he's being sweet,

he's really sweeter than anything in this world.

I love you bi!

Happy 7th!

Amelia

Just updating

2010-12-01T22:47:00.002+08:00

Oh man December is here already~! Why so fast??? =( Feels like I only came back a few days.

My holidays plan:

-Revisions and revisions!

-Learn some cooking or baking =D

-Catch up with friends

-CHC

-Camp

-Christmas

-Hope to go for a vacation, even its only 1 or 2 days. X)

*I'm gonna be super duper sad when this month ends.

Amelia

SUCKS

2010-11-26T00:28:00.004+08:00

Hi bloggie, it's been a while again. Well, you know what happen when I look for you. Yup, stupid-annoying things bugging me again. Let me tell you what happened in my life. For the past few months, I can say that I wasn't living a normal-good life ever since I went for college. It's been a life-sucking moment almost every week. First thing, studies? It's getting more sucks than ever in each exam. It is way way worse than my previous results I had, getting results that I never had or imagine, you have no idea how big impact that to me, but, I chose to ignore it as if it's not a big deal. That's not all, having to see how well all my friends are doing, it strikes me even harder. There was once someone told me that I'll be doing fine cause I had a good results. With these words it did built up a little my confidence but when it does not go that way, I get more disappointments. No, I'm just an average student and I'm not a smart student. I always stress myself to study and also to get good satisfying results. And it's only the beginning.

The other thing also involves major part of my life. I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. And you know how much it effects even if it's the smallest, tiniest matter in the world. It's been getting worse and worse each month and I seriously do not know what I should do? It'll never always please any of us, that's why the fight goes on and on and on until I couln't take it any more. I never fight like that in my entire life. There's so many times trying to talk things over but in the end it does not change anything. What's the use of telling? Sometimes I rather not talk cause telling out and nothing change is more hurtful than you not say it out. Yea I know everyone's not perfect. Tolerate some I can, tolerate all and every single day I cannot. I'm too a human and not to mention a very sensitive girl. Every girl in is whole planet at least have 1 or 2 requirements about their future partner. Unfortunately mine are not fulfill yet. It's really funny isn't it? I'm sure you're laughing at me right now inside. Well, I too hate myself a lot for being a "glue" all the time. There's a whole lot more I couldn't express. People might think I'm so happy now but honestly I'm not happy that I'm suppose to.

Hey bloggie, I know something will happen after this and I'm sure it's not going to be a good one. I only can commit this time and everything to God, and thanks for listening too.

Amelia

2010-11-11T16:30:00.002+08:00

Nothing more I can say about it.

What's done, done!

Just wish to go back to my most comfort zone

FAST!

Amelia

18102010

2010-10-20T22:02:00.005+08:00

终于过了!

上个星期六和日和一大半人去Port Dickson BBQ,

庆祝四个人的生日

当然其中一个是宝贝的生日

那天有开心和不开心的事发生

而真真生日那天 (星期一) 也一样,

本来有点兴奋紧张的我

到最后搞得不开心

发生一些不想发生的事

不过幸好最后大家都没事

算了

过去就过去了

最让我心痛的就是烧了很多很多纸币

T_T

希望他会珍惜

这样一切就值得了!

再一次生日快乐!

Just wish you to be happy everyday!

It matters!

Amelia

Falling apart

2010-10-14T23:35:00.002+08:00

What will you do when things around you doesn't go any better?

things getting worse than you thought everyday or ever week or every month?

How will you feel when you couldn't even tell a single person about it cause nobody knows how you feel? They might heard the similar things but they don't know how you feel.

'Don't ask how I know. I know.'

And you couldn't even blog about it cause people will read your blog, obviously.

And of course you can't open your mouth to tell that particular person about it cause you do not have enough trust in that person.

Well... I feel hopeless right now.

Amelia

2010-10-07T01:02:00.002+08:00

Now I know why I'm 'dead'

cause I'm not 'breathing'.

Time to wake up

and start learning how to 'breathe' again!

Matthew 6:9-13

'Our Father in heaven,

hallowed be your name,

your kingdom come,

your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

Give us today our daily bread.

Forgive us our debts,

as we also have forgiven our debtors.

And lead us not into temptation,

but deliver us from the evil one.'

Amelia

Happy~ but seriously tired...

2010-09-30T19:34:00.001+08:00

Oh bloggie,

how long have I abandoned you

sorry guys,

it's been awhile I haven't been blogging.

again.. lazy and erm.. lazy?

Hehe..

Oh well, just a short post for now..

I just want to shout out loud that..

I finally went to Genting!!!

Muahahaha...

with Shaun and his friendsss to celebrate 1 of his friends birthday.

Wakakakaka...

After waited for like 1 year,

it's not that I've never been to Genting before,

but I've been dying to go there cause quite some time didn't do already.

Although we did not play anything there,

cause we went there at night (awesome night view!) until 4.40am only reach back home.

but nvm, I'm quite satisfied enough to be there. Haha..

Nothing much to do there except taking tons of photos.. =)

which I'm very happy about it too. Haha..

Silly me..

Anyway...

It is seriously tired to stay up so late,

well, for me la..

I think this is the 4th time I stay up that late,

not to mention 2nd or 3rd time go back home that late.. Oops!

So in the end couldn't manage to go to school in about 3 hours after reaching home.

Oops again!

Sorry, I didn't mean to do that.

I promise it'll be the last time. =)

Once again

Thank you so much bi for bringing me there~! X)

Amelia

Ipoh~

2010-09-05T23:01:00.003+08:00

Yay! It's holiday again~
Feel so happy to be back home..
My bed~
Car~
TV~
Online~
and of course outing with my lovely friends.
Who wants to date me?
Hahaha..

But still need to save some time to study.
Test 1 and 2 still sucks like nobody's business.
Malaysian Studies exam is right after holiday.
So yea..
STUDY......

Amelia

shang xin~

2010-08-26T17:51:00.005+08:00

Is stress about almost everything here!

T_T

Having serious pimples problem!

Now I only realise Ipoh's air and water is so much better than here.

I want to go home~

Amelia

It's Missing

2010-08-15T12:49:00.010+08:00

I just miss every little things that you've used to said.

Every little things that you've used to do.

But now it's all gone.

You've change to another person which sometimes I don't even recognize.

Why can't they just stay that way?

Reasons aren't a reason anymore.

"Do you remember how it all started?"

Amelia

Wake up!

2010-08-07T23:14:00.002+08:00

Wow.. long time didn't update my blog already. Nevermind, I'm back again. Ahh~~~ I feel so lost right now actually, didn't know that so many things are happening and I couldn't do anything about it. Lost in studies, lost in my real purpose staying here, lost in relationships, lost until I don't know what is right and what is the wrong thing to do. Life is so hectic when you're in the wrong place.

*Come on! wake up ling! why do you always have to do what other people says, just do whatever you want to,go whereever you wwant to. This is your life, not to be control by others. Be yourself!* *Roll eyes*

Frankly, to make it sound nicer, I dislike my life right now. It's hard to get just simple things I wanted and I really do miss 'Fun' and 'Laughter'. Urghh! so fed up with doing/talking the same repeating things/topics everyday in college. It's really hard to find a bunch of friends to share things with, maybe its only hard for me only. But luckily, I still have a friend to talk to everyday, really thank her a lot that she is there to hear everything I said, and also her supports. =) If not, I think I've gone crazy and depress by now.

I seriously miss my friends back in Ipoh. Talking and laughing non-stop everyday. Since I came here studying, its quite hard to stay updated with theme every now and then. Now I only know, things are happening back there which is hurtful after what I heard. The saddest thing is none of them came and told me what happened and I couldn't do anything to help. Hello? I'm still here you know? Am I not your friend anymore? So much for best buddies. Sigh.

Amelia

2010-07-18T15:00:00.011+08:00

I don't have a new heart.Even I've recover from what I've been through in the past.There are still scars and holes in it.Because of too afraid of things will repeat again.I doubt a lot,about everything.Having insecurity all the time.Bring me back from the darkness.Show and prove that I can trust for the rest of my life.Help me to love and to be loved once more.

2010-07-05T19:16:00.005+08:00

愿意+关心+真心
就那么难吗？

若主动再参进来
那就完美了。
我好累。好累。

2010-06-23T00:00:00.002+08:00

Okay.. finally I'm back in blogging business. I'm still very tired and lazy to blog anyway. X) Oh well, my relaxing days are over and now back to studies. Sigh. Just hate going to class everyday now, don't know why, just hate the feeling, dislike the super early class and super late end of class, dislike the crowdy place, dislike the annoying lecture, dislike the long-distance of walking to school everyday single day.

I still miss my holidays in Ipoh. Found out that I actually feel very very comfortable in my own place, especially my bed. Ahh~~ nice comfy bed. Other than my house, I miss driving, I can go wherever I want to, so good. Feel the goodness of car. Haha.. and of course miss my crazy friends very much. I actually regret that I didn't go and find them until the last day I was still at Ipoh, celebrate Dino's birthday. I love the cupcakes that Li yen made! And I am very happy to see Dino Joe LOVE it very much! The one and only Super Junior cupcake. It is an good idea after all. =) Although I had a lot of fun and laugh on that day, but didn't able the talk with my besties, miss their craziness! =)

Anyway, my test 1 is coming soon. *NO~* Don't know what will happen to the paper.. and me! Wish me luck people, wish me luck. ;)

Amelia

2010-06-12T22:19:00.003+08:00

Is TIRED!

I need a huge doze of encouragement!
I need supports!
Not the look of 'eww' or 'yucks' or things that pull me down.

Still needs prayers.

Amelia

对不起

2010-06-08T17:29:00.006+08:00

我现在才发现..
最难过的不只因为吵架..
还有就是知道你有多难过..
知道你因为我而掉泪..
我不只伤心..
是心很痛..
我不想伤人的心..
尤其是你的心..
不要再掉泪了好吗?
宝贝

Amelia

没那麼简单

2010-06-08T01:24:00.003+08:00

没那麼简单就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那麼多的背叛
总是不安只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫
没那麼简单就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管
感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上关上了手机舒服窝在沙发裡
相爱没有那麼容易每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麼容易才会特别让人著迷
什麼都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心所以最开心曾经

Amelia

Zero Confidence

2010-06-03T23:13:00.004+08:00

I always have this question in my mind.
Why can't it be just simple and sweet?
Why?
Why does it always have to be so fearful?

I'm just to afraid to lose it again.
What will happen to this fragile heart if it happens twice?
I don't know and I never want to know about it.

Wish to smile and laugh every single moment.
Who doesn't want that?
But the fact is things doesn't allow that to happen all the time.
There must be a thing that'll keep on bothering you,
things that you dislike/fear of,
making your day turn upside down.

No matter how much paatience I have,
there's still something that I unable to bear.
I couldn't do anything about it but keep on praying.

I'm carrying a fearful heart and mind everyday.
I need prayers.

Amelia

New Chapter

2010-05-29T17:44:00.001+08:00

May is ending soon, very soon. I feel that time pass so slow when I'm having classes but sometimes feel that time pass fast also. Don't know what I'm talking about? Nevermind, cause I also don't know what I'm talking about.. Hehehe..

It's already 3 weeks I stay at KL here. So far haven't got to go back to hometown, not like my other friends got to go back once or twice this month. Well, I've attended classes for only 2 weeks and I've already start to feel a little stress or just scare. Although right now what I'm learning is a bit of revision of what I've learned in form 5, but some I still don't understand and some forgot already, especially Physics. ==" When I don't understand the lesson of the day for 1 hour, means the whole lesson, it always makes me want to drop the subject. Should I drop it? I'm always asking this question myself. Besides that, the students there are also smart people, all scholars. They always know how to do/answer most of the questions the lecturers or tutors gave but me. I always have no any idea how to do those questions, just looking and waiting, feel like such a failure. =(

I'm still glad I have my friends around me, supporting me, especially You and you. =) If not, I really don't know what I'll become, crying everyday, gone 'ku ku' already. Haha.. Just joking. =) I'll be back next week for 2 weeks holidays! =) Finally got a chance to go back to see my dear friends. Wait for me kawan, we have a lot to chat about. ;)

Amelia ♥ u

Confusion..frustration..

2010-05-22T15:12:00.002+08:00

Some parts make me want to stay.
Some parts make me want to stay away.
Don't hate me.
I'm really tired.
=(

Amelia

Gettin tired and tired...

2010-05-11T21:29:00.003+08:00

Yes peeps,

I'm starting to get tired,

not physically but mentally and emotionally.

I've been thinking so so much,

from morning till night,

and sometimes I think until I couldn't sleep quickly like I normally used to.

Am I doing the right thing here?

I need some answers,

especially from the One on high,

if not I'll get confused and loss control again.

I seriously don't want that to happen again.

O.O

Amelia

First day of College

2010-05-10T21:13:00.003+08:00

Ahh~ Its the second day I'm staying in TARC and the first day go to school today! Eventually I couldn't sleep AT ALL on the first night in the hostel. I started sleeping at 12am, then I've been tossing and turning, asleep for awhile then woke up again, until 3 something am, I couldn't sleep anymore, so I wake up to try the wireless net in the room, but failed. Then I went back lay on the bed again, message some people to see whether they're asleep anot, no replies fine. Tossing and turning again until 4-5 something I think. Then after that I only can sleep, but 8.30am I have to wake up already. Why? I really don't know. I can say that its not because of homesick. Haha.. Maybe its because its quite hot? or its because something's bothering me, er.. not in a bad way la luckily. =) I hope I can sleep on the second night, and also the following nights. X)

On the first day of orientation, we've been listening to all the briefings starting from 10.30am. I was so so so sleepy and hungry at 11 something because of the sleepless night and I only drink a cup of 3 in 1 oaths for breakfast, have to tahan until almost 1pm only can have lunch. Wow, that's what I can say. After that at 2pm, have to continue listening the briefing for School of Pre-University Studies until 4pm. 5pm I only went back to hostel.

Oh well, I think that's about it for the first day of briefing. I still have tuesday 1-4pm, wednesday 9-2.30pm and friday's station games, but I think I won't be going on friday. Hehe.. Lazy.. So that means I'll be starting my classes next week! =) But this week have to do student ID, books and stuff. =) Actually its quite scary when one of the lecturer today talks about the tests and exams systems, and also the schlorships. Okay kawan, continue to wish me luck people and pray! I miss you peeps in Ipoh~

PS Clarence, Jennifer, Daphne, I'm still waiting to see you~ X) X) X)
PSS I'm currently still being taken well of. =)))

Amelia

Goodbye my dear friends

2010-05-07T23:49:00.004+08:00

Ahh~ 今天竟然是最后一天了! 没想到酱快就要离开了, 时间过得真快. 其实说真的, 这最后两天让我很不舍得离开. 开始的时候还以为还有很多时间, 那时就那边想, 哎呀, 还有一个月, 没关系, 慢慢来. 过后就说, 还有两个星期, 没关系. 最后, 还有一个星期吧了! 快点! 我们要珍惜时间! 我要走了! 然后整个星期都出去, 每天从早到晚, 除了星期二啦. Hehe.. 之前还说要出国读书，还想得真美. Haha..

我觉得, 每次当我要离开前的一两天才会感觉到不舍吧. 而且, 最重要的是因为朋友! 就是因为他们, 好像有种力量把我拉住, 让我觉得很不想走. =( 尤其是陈先生, 那整晚就在我面前讲一些很感性的东西, 让我很多时候差点在他们面前流泪, 要回的时候更死, 两夫妻还要特地下车抱一下. 亲爱的朋友，我只是去吉隆坡, 不是出国, 我会回来的! 如果没有时常回来也会一直联络你们的. 今天也是差不多一样, 载了两位亲爱的朋友回家过后, 差点在车哭出来. 现在写着写着也很想哭tim. =‘）

朋友们，好好的保重, 我会很想念你们的, 这是我的真心话. 我会常常找你们的啦, 你们也是. 你们在这边也要加油! 我们一起加油!! X)

Amelia

Thanks Babes!

2010-05-04T23:16:00.005+08:00

There's still 2 more days left before I leave Ipoh! Yesterday was the last gathering with Yee Chee and Denise. Thanks girls for coming! =)

Well, apparently I became the driver of the day for Miss Vivien and Miss Anjoe. Wake up early in the morning went to fetch Vivien first, then Anjoe. After that went back to school cause they need to certify something to apply Form 6. Then, we went back to Jusco to have our lunch at Secret Recipe~ Luckily not that expensive, if not I'll be bankrup in just one day. Haha.. Then we went to sing k! Yay! My favourite. X) We sing and shout in the room for 3 hours, especially Yee Chee, she's the most impressive one! Lol.. Unfortunately a lot of songs that we choose didn't sing cause not enough time. Hee~ After that we straight away go for IP Man 2! Good show! Although there were times I really feel like going into the show and punch the guy when he insults chinese people, but still good show. Haha.. So after watching the movie, Anjoe, Denise and Yee Chee went home, left me and Mayi only. We went to Mcd just to sit down and chat. =) 7 something only go home. I 8.30pm only reach home. So that means I went out from morning until night. Soooo tired, but its fun! X)

Thanks a lot to my dear friend for having this gathering. Actually its kinda early to have farewell for me cause I still have 4 days that time. Nevermind, Dino and Mayi, we still have Friday! Anyway, I'm so gonna miss both of you! Miss Dino crapping and her laughther, miss the time looking both of you laugh about something which is not funny for a long time, miss the time talking everything to Mayi, miss the time we share a lot things together, I mean heart-to-heart conversation and etc etc. I actually was about to cry when Dino says she choose 2 songs(about friendship) for me. I'm so touched! =''') I don't hope that our friendship will fade away slowly even when we're far apart. Friends must keep in touch! Take care! I'll definately tell you when I'm coming back. =)

Sharky Ling

2 weeks!

2010-04-24T18:23:00.003+08:00

Oh... I guess I dump my blog away again 'cause of my lazyness. Hehe.. Somebody is nagging me already. Don't be annoyed Wan Li and sorry everybody. =)

Yupe people, still got 2 more weeks then I'll be moving down to KL and start my new life there, I mean study. Hehe..Was actually feeling kinda worried at first cause I'm going down studying there alone, worried about the people and the environment there, cause you know, there's a lot of bad guys out there, what if this happen, what if that happen, I mean all the negative things, and I'm a girl somemore. Haha.. But later on after talking to someone, and think about it, I feel better, maybe I was thinking too much. Haha.. Just let it flow smoothly. =) Besides that a few days ago I got to know that 2 of my schoolmates are studying the same course with me, and one of them is my classmates. I'm so happy and relieved when I heard the news. =))) That time I knew, I'm not alone all along. Haha.. And I got to know it before school starts. Thank God!

Now I'm just starting to prepare stuff for my college life. Went to buy some things today but its not even half of the list yet it already cost a lot of money. I wonder what's the total amount after finish buying. Haha.. Anyway, hope I didn't miss out anything when I'm there already. =)

Well, I've barely thought of my friends here this few weeks, I mean after I go to KL will I be homesick? missing them too much until wanted to come back on the first day? Haha.. Seriously, I haven't thought about it, yet, after I read Dino's blog I only realized. Yea, it's true that at this moment everyone of us has seperate. I mean totally different places, except Chow and Ong, they're still sticking each other. XD Well, I only thought about this a bit today. I do miss them very much, even now, thinking that we couldn't see each other more often already. =( Dino, don't make me cry la.. hehe..

First, I miss Bernice Ong very much. Now, I have to miss Sabrina Ooi very much also, cause I long time didnt see her, and can't even see her before she leave! LOL..

Amelia

Updates

2010-04-13T00:38:00.002+08:00

Wow, looks like its been awhile I didn't update my blog again. Sorry but I'm just getting lazy and lazier to update it. Hehe.. Well, few days ago I've lost one of my grandparents, there's four and now only left one. Although I wasn't close with grandma, but still, feels a lot empty when she's gone. I never like saying goodbye to those who's leaving somewhere far, not to mention leaving forever. == It was quite a shocking moment when I received the call from my mum, I literally didn't know how to respond, and I was at school, waiting to go up stage some more. Anyway, I'm very glad that there's a few Elim Youth representatives came and is on the list, really appreciate them for spending their time and have a heart to come. =)

Hmm.. I've also been feeling down lately or past few days, but now I'm better than before. Luckily I have friends around to 'scold' me, to 'pull' me up, to 'wake' me up and etc. And most of all, thanks to Clarence, for making me just simply smile or laugh by looking at his pictures at facebook. Hee.. its still a compliment Clarence. =)) But still, I hope some friends are there with me, like Ber and Shi and Jan, not to really comfort me but just to hang around, to forget all the stupid stuff. Its not that the friends around me are not good but I feel more comfortable with other friends. Its a human-with-human relationship, that's what I'm learning recently. You might think that I'll only find one person to talk to whenever I have problem but you're wrong. Things change and you might not know you are the only one I wanted to tell and talk to. But now, I just need peace, means quiet moment, means don't bother me, means don't ask related questions.

Really miss Bernice Ong Tsui Yue very much! Faster come back help me solve my problem. Hee.. 7 more months! patience~ I'll be waiting for that day. I WILL! X)

Amelia

The Frog

2010-03-31T21:08:00.004+08:00

This post is dedicated to our most PERASAN friend.
I think I can present a award for her. Haha...
She is... Frog Chow!

Happy Birthday Chow!!!
Have fun over there and good luck in studies!
n remember to TAKE CARE n keep us update!
We'll always miss you here!

P.S You really look 'round' already in all the photos. O.o

Amelia

Towards the end

2010-03-29T23:42:00.002+08:00

Suddenly just felt like post something up.
If not I'll get some 'complains' from people again. Hehe..
Well, finally 'Happy' and 'Laugh' came back already,
but, 'They' seems to be different after went disappear. Haha..
Fine.. at least they are back to me! =)

At last, I finally finish deciding, and finish applying,
hopefully, I'll get a positive answer.
During the period of thinking, it really gives me headache,
plus when I knew almost all my friends had decided what they wanted,
or worse, some had already started their lessons,
it gives me more pressure because I'm the last and only one that haven't complete anything,
and yet still thinking.
People always ask me the same question and..
I'm always giving them back the same answer. "Still searching."
Felt like a loser. Haiz...
That's why I've been so... messed up? Hah..

Anyway, SOON, I'll be stepping into a new place, new environment.
Although last week I've just learned that we should not be worrying about this and that
cause God has choose a path for each of us,
but, frankly, I'm worried. Hehe..
There's one EARLY morning, I suddenly woke up. Why?
because I was thinking about my future study life,
was thinking what if this happen? and what if that happen?
a lot of 'What if'.
I'm still worrying. Sometimes.

I had a GOOD laugh watching Just Another Pandora's Box! One of the best show also~!
I'm happy that I ate Liyen's cupcake! Finally~

Amelia

Evil

2010-03-18T23:36:00.005+08:00

Where can I be quiet and alone?
except my own house.
I just wish to go somewhere to have a quiet moment right now.
I wanted to go for a walk in a park, just as simple as that.
But, I don't think that there is such safe place to go to,
especially at night.
Darn you stupid bad guys!
Or go somewhere else with one of my friend, just one to accompany me,
anytime, anywhere, 24 hours on call,
without any other problems coming into my mind.
But, I couldn't find any suitable one.

'Happy' and 'Laugh' had gone away from me again.
maybe, 'They' are lost.
God, why won't You bring them back to me now?
Why do 'They' leave me for some time already and not coming back?
I wish, I hope, I pray that I can laugh like nobody's business like I used to.

Amelia

谁可以真的救我？？

2010-03-16T21:58:00.008+08:00

现在脑海里只有为什么!
我讨厌我自己为什么又要发生这样的事?
为什么就不要好好地过自己的生活?
为什么? 为什么?? 为什么???
这一次, 我很确定我的决定,
你可不可以不要对我做一些事好不好?
我就是讨厌你! 快点走啊你! 快点回去你的地方!
不要让我再看到你!
你在这里, 就是在折磨我!!
你到底有什么好啊?
为什么就是要留在我头脑里啊?
为什么你就是不要滚开?!
每天看到你都已经够烦了,
现在还要看你做伤害我的事,
这样好玩吗???
我, 对你来说是个玩具的, 就是那么好玩吗?!!??

It's a miracle for all

2010-03-11T23:33:00.016+08:00

Today is the day.
The day where we, '09 SPM-ers, parents and friends get really nervous and excited about.
Results are released today!!

Actually, I don't know really want to wake up today,
but have to, if not its not a right thing to do, and weird. Haha.
Anyway, I reached school at 10.30am,
just the right time to receive my results.
Saw a lot of people in MPH already, and cars outside, parents waiting.
OMG~
Katan also good timing, called me at 10.30am.
(I just reached there.. Heh.. ^^)

I was super nervous when I was waiting.
As usual, when I'm nervous, I'll be very stiffed.
After Anjoe got her results, she cried, because she's too happy.
Me and Vivien cried too when we saw her crying.
Actually, I don't know why I cried that time,
maybe she scared me that time, and I was nervous-ing,
and saw tears, so I cried, haha.
And so, still waiting, nervous-ing, waiting, nervous-ing,
until, my turn!! Ahh~~~
Actually is Vivien's turn, but when teacher saw me beside too,
she gave me first!!!
She searched for my name, then.. then..
she looked at me.. and say..
"Sue Shyan.. tahniah.. kamu dalam golongan yang cemerlang(something like that)..
selepas tengok results kamu..
bagi balik dia(prefect).. dan pergi ke padang ambil gambar.
Kamu faham tak?"
Well.. I looked at her, and said..
"Har? Tak faham.." -_-|||
And she repeated again. Hahaha...
Sorry la.. my whole mind was just thinking about how many As,
cause she didn't tell me how many! XD
Nvm.. after getting the paper..
counting and couting.. haha..
Ahh~~~ couldn't describe my feelings that time, haha..
I kept screaming and beating someone,
couldn't believe my eyes!
After knowing my results, I still couldn't stop myself from screaming and moving up and down,
because still very gan jeong!
I called my parents, katan and jenn.
Actually, I screamed a lot to katan when talking to him on phone.
And I was so noisy that time, first time so noisy and loud, but I don't care. Hahaha.
After that, we went to find some of our teachers and thank them. =)
Then, I fetched Anjoe and Vivien to Omega to get their money for getting 'A' for their Physics.
Then, only go to Jusco to have lunch at McD, and meet Janice, Sabrina and Jo Yee.
We wanted to go to Kbox but a lot of people and not enough time.
So we went to Ebox.
But, something happened when we reached Ebox. Why?
my car window cannot come up because the motor is very weak already.
So, luckily nearby got repair car shop(don't know call what).
Let the guy help me to fix it. Just like that I lost my RM5. T_T
But didn't go to Ebox also, in the end when to eat 'ice'.
After that fetched Anjoe home, left me, Vivien and Sabrina.
We decided to go back to Ebox. Haha.
Unfortunately we only got to sing for awhile cause Sabrina had to go home,
wasted almost half of our money. Haiz...
So, today's celebration is just like that.
Next time, I want to go Kbox or Ebox and sing as long as I want!!
I never have enough of it. hehehe.. ^^

Amelia

Celebration~

2010-02-28T23:41:00.003+08:00

My birthday has passed a week ago,
but today only celebrate because of some other situation.
I thought I wasn't going to celebrate any this year,
thinking, what a bad and sad year.
Luckily my dear friends had gave me a little surprises today, haha.
Although its not a big surprises with many many people around,
but I'm happy that I had one.
Like what other people like to say,
One better than none. =)
We went for a movie and KBOX!
Thanks a lot to them, I did not pay anything for the whole programme,
except my own lunch. Hehe.
Really happy and had a lot of fun.
The movie was hilarious and KBOX is always syok!
And thanks for the presents too. =)
Thank you~~~

Amelia

Chow and Ong

2010-02-22T23:49:00.006+08:00

Two of my dearest friends had left to Australia last Wednesday and Sunday. Never thought that this day came so fast. On 17th February, except about my stomach, was quite happy about that day. A few of us started our journey of visitation in the morning until afternoon around 4pm. At first I was fine until the time we were about to go to Bernice's house, suddenly Janice told me that she is leaving soon. After I heard what she said, I nearly burst out in the car. Haha. But in the end we all did cry when she was about to leave her house, keep on hugging and and crying. I don't really know what to say at that moment, I only know I miss her very much eventhough she's still standing in front of me. I'm already feeling so sad but evil Ong still want to say something to me when she hugged me, making my tears cannot stop flowing out. I had cried the whole day on that day.

Same goes to Shireen. Was totally ok in the morning, except my stomach and vomitting again. I thought I will not cry this time. Haha. But at the moment when its time for her to go on board, tears keep rolling out again. Gosh... I hate separation. I really don't like to say goodbye to my friends, I mean for those who will leave us for a long time and far away, especially when you are there to send them off, waving your hands and seeing them go into the flight. That kind of feeling is undescribable. Next time please don't ask me to send people off again. Hehe.

To Ber and Shi,
Sorry about the videos, because of my stupid camera you cannot see it. Hehe. Anyway, I'll type what I've said in the video out here. =) Erm... although I'm not your bestest best friends like Janice and Sabrina, but both of you are very improtant friends to me, you are in my important list, haha. I knew both of you since primary but just got close with you during Form 4, and that time it was you two brought me to Elim Church. Since I went there, my life had totally changed, like 180 degree changed, I knew a lot of people, a lot of things, had a lot of fun and also a lot of nice food. =))) I think most of the time I always follow both of you, especially Ong, but now you two had left, putting me here alone, at this very important period of time, if you know what I mean, what am I going to do? What?? Vivien, Jan and Sab they seldom come to church, where can I go? Where?? I've been thinking about this question since the beginning of the year. Anyway, I will really really miss both of you, especially Ong. We only start to get more closer during camp that time, then you always fetch me here and there and talk a lot of stuff. But unfortunately the time is too short, couldn't spend more with you, especially Chow, the busiest girl in the whole universe. Lastly, just want to say again, take good care of yourself there, need to help each other all the time cause now besides your friend Ong, others you don't know who is he/she. Always keep us update ar!! We will too. I'll pray for both of you. God Bless You! =)

Amelia

Helpless

2010-02-10T00:36:00.005+08:00

I've been wondering why now I seldom blog anymore. Last time, when I started to have my own blog, I used to write quite a lot of stupid stuff, things that are not going well in my life. I used to write when I'm troubled, just to release everything out in my blog and make me feel better. Later on, I realised that my post are getting fewer since last year don't know when. It shows that finally my life are not as worse as before, in the sence of not having problems everyday, or for some of you like to say, not emo-ing everyday. Yupe, its true, since last year until now, I had a better friendship with my dear friends and also I've grown up! I think. Emotionally or spiritually or others? You tell me. I'm actually living a way WAY better life than before, although before that came up something quite disappointed, bothering me quite some time. But, after telling it out, refresh myself over and over again, I think that, maybe I was too over reacting, or in other word, maybe I was just being perasan. Heh. So in the end, I've decided to get up again, find myself back and life goes on. Okay, so everything is COOL. Just when I was happily continue living my life, SUDDENLY! SOMETHING POP OUT AGAIN! And this time, this time! Its was WAY WAY WAY WORSE than ever! I was shocked, stunned, freezed, and most importantly feeling super duper hyper extremely 100% helpless! I did looked for help but its so useless cause nobody seems to understand what I'm trying to tell. Immediately, the first thing on my mind was, I want to get out of here, I want to get out from this world. I'm begging but don't know who to beg. My feelings that time was like, if I have money right now, I would have immediately fly to the furthest place, seriously. That time, I was actually quite angry with Him, still is, but not so much. I'm angry that why, why does He want to do this to me? Why is He making this plan? I rather accept any other bad things happen on me than this. Why this? and why now? I was totally speechless, and really, really don't know what to do, suddenly lost of direction. Everytime I was just looking for my "bodyguards", cause I'm really afraid. You guys won't know how scare I am. Since the first day, felt like bursting when I was calling someone but I can't, instead I was actually shaking. This time around I have no tears, but "countless" fear. After both of my dear friends has gone, soon, it is harder for me to find help. What shall I do? I really don't know the answer, cause that time, I'm all alone, don't know where to go. I might do something which you will not like.
我现在最怕的是历史重演.

Amelia

Big, Huge Disappointment... Again...

2010-01-25T14:29:00.000+08:00

Well, few days ago realised that I was fooled again, by something? someone? or myself? I think its more of my own problem. I think my old stupid useless habit are kinda back again, making myself so miserable these few weeks. Sometimes doing something so into it until you don't know what you are doing actually until... when you did not get the result you wanted, thats the time you feel a big huge disappointment and also realised that you are doing/thinking something really really stupid.

I think this is the second biggest disappointment I'm going through after my super duper sad, devastated and depressed moment, or the dark moment. Hah! Again, I was putting too much hopes on it, hoping that it will stay the way I wanted, but in fact that's not gonna happen cause, like I said before, everybody is different. They think and act differently. They will not do exactly the same like you to them. Erghh! I need to forget, delete my stupid theory of people will treat you the way you wanted if you treat them the way they wanted or just being nice. How naive.

Anyway, I got to let go everything and start all over again, I think. Just pretend that nothing has happened before. What had happened its just a dream. I won't put any high hopes on it ever again. Just treating this person like others, that's it. For the people who know what had happened, please slap me to wake me up if I'm doing the same mistake again.

Amelia

A joke?

2010-01-12T23:55:00.000+08:00

I have never always feel I'm part of it.

I mean never gonna get it.
When I don't feel that way, somebody told me I am.
After I listen to that somebody, I don't see it.
What a joke.
Hah, this is my final time to believe it again.

Amelia

Very free~

2010-01-09T00:27:00.000+08:00

Ahh~ the first week of 2010 has gone already. People who have to go to school, go to school, and some of my friends has already started their studies (aiyor~so fast), some have to work, so I think I'm the only one staying at home everyday, sitting in front of the screen day and night. Oh man, why am I always the one who has nothing to do, I'm always so free, haha! The only thing I can do now is to learn driving, but also not everyday, have to wait until next week. =) Luckily, I'm still cool with it, haven't reach to the 'fatt mou' state, =p

I've celebrated Laura, Miao and Kim's birthday this week with S8. Its good that we still got to gather around and meet up before everyone leaves, but unfortunately not many came, some has went to NS, poor them.

Hmm.. sometimes I wonder what is going on in school right now. Nah I not missing school, just 'geh po' want to know what's going on cause I know something has happened recently, just hope that the problem is already solved. Anyway, recently I've also read a lot of blogs and everyone seems so... emo. Oh what is going on now. Felt weird, just hope they'll be alright and fast cause I don't want to read any emo blogs again which reminds me of the past.

People might not notice but since... erm... the last fight, I think around last year October, I changed myself the way I think of some perspectives, which helps me to be a lot less emo. People always used to say that I'm so emo, so sensitive about a particular thing, which also I hate it A LOT. Well, after I found my own solution, I felt that I have so less burden, so little things to think about. Usually it would take months or forever to do it, but somehow I managed to deal with it just a few days? Hah, sometimes I wonder how did I do it. Gosh.

Everbody is asking me why I'm not doing Form 6. Well, I have a few reasons. First is I don't think I can handle STPM, second is it take 2 years and also some other reasons. Don't ask cause its my own reason and you'll say that I'm stupid or something if you know what's that. So far I've only told 1 person about this and eventually we have similar thoughts, similar, not exactly the same. Haha! Well, hope that God will lead me the way and I'm able to do it. =)

Amelia

Sayonara 2009 and Hello 2010

2010-01-01T17:13:00.001+08:00

Oh well, 2009 has gone so fast. Last year I did a simple conclusion about what had happened in 2008 and it seems like Uncle William likes it (I think). Haha. So let's see what I did in '09. =)

First time celebrated CNY with EYs at Bernice, Shireen and Amelia Low's house. We played blackjack. Hehe. LONG TIME didn't play during CNY already.

Oo~~

Being a commander and lead for sports day marching. But in the end didn't win also.

I got serious sickness and admited to Hospital Fatimah, stayed there for 4 days. I was very touched when a few EYs came to see me after few hours admited into the hospital, but I look very terrible that time and katan took my horrible picture. Ish! I also got a few msg from friends too. Thanks for caring. =)

Went to MC gathering. We won 6 trophies if not mistaken. Then hiking with some juniors on the next day.

Awards:
Best dance
Best singing
Best commander
Best scarf
Best iron guide
Most discipline

I'm not in. ='(

Celebrated our winnings in Shireen's house. BBQ!

ISPCA Duty. Too bad we didn't have dinner this year because of RAFFLESIA!

Organised Ranger and Girl Guide Camp with 9 other committees.

First time slept in Shireen's house.

Went to Korean Praise! Love it!

Went to PSPA Moonlight Serenade

Last time went to support cheer in KL. But Anjoe can't make it. Haiz...

Involved in AMC Canteen Day.

Support Vivien, Bernice and Shireen at MC.

First time involved in night worship girl band. Haha. And its one and only 1 time.

Joined Run For The Nation. Same group with Vivien and Koon.

Attended AMC 71th Anniversary Concert before SPM. And did crazy and silly stuff after the concert. =D

Had both lovely and memorable Ranger and Girl Guide Farewell. Thank you so much to my lovely juniors.

Helped out at Anjoe's mum's Kindergarden Concert.

Its a BIG year. Had Trials and SPM. Don't know what results will come out. We went out makan and played on our Add Maths day. Haha.

Organised Youth Camp 2009 at Pangkor. 1 experience is more than enough.

Had Thanksgiving Dinner aka gathering for all campers aka christmas party.

I also had a lot of fights with the animals this year. All are quite serious issues. But in the end, we always ended up with happy endings. All thanks to God. He saved our friendship and got better little by little. I think.

I finally finish listen to undang. Failed once, passed second time. Waiting to learn driving now. Hehe..

And lastly I had a first countdown 2010 with EYs, twice! Haha.

Well, that's what happened in 2009! New year came, new challenges and new places later. Hello 2010. We finally graduated, everybody is going to leave and futher their studies in different places. Take Care my friends. Next station, where do I go?

Amelia

Tagged

2009-12-28T18:58:00.000+08:00

♥ Tagged by Anjoe
32 THINGS YOU DUNNO BOUT ME UNTIL YOU READ THIS.

1. What colour is your toothbrush?
-yellow n orange

2. Name one person that make you smile today.
-er...lee kar wai

3. What were you doing at 8am?
-sleeping

4. What were you doing 45 mins ago?
-still fb-ing

5. What was the last drink you drank?
-water

6. Who is the last person you had sent a msg to on Facebook?
-i think is Jon L.D(just reply his msg which is a shocking one..about "somebody") =D

7. Ever go camping?
-yes of course

8. Do you go to church on Sundays?
-not really..

9. What did your last sms say?
-30th..tmr not free..

10. Where is your dad?
-working lo..or maybe on the way back home..

11. Look to your left, what do you see?
-curtain

12. What colour is your watch?
-I don't have watch

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
-just went to bed..

14. How old are you?
-seventeen

15. Do you want to change your name?
-just feel like want to change christian name

16. How many kids do you want to have?
-er...i don't know...

17. Would you like to kiss any facebook friends?
-erm..no thanks..

18. Who are the best huggers that you know?
-a lot la..everyone i hug before is the best..XD

19. List three favourite colours/shades
-black..white..purple

20. Have you ever fallen in love?
-yea..

21. How did you get your worst scar?
-screw of the bicycle 'charp' into my leg..got a few stitches..

22. Do you like cats?
-yup..but not as much as doggies..=)

23. Do you love anyone?
-yea..

24. What do you hope on your b'day?
-a big surprise party with lots of lovely presents...muahahaha...

25. Do you plan any trips for your next coming?
-yea..plan to go genting with friends..planning only..hehe..

26. What do you do usually during the day?
-online..watch tv..heh..

27. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
-yea..but luckily i don't have to see that person anymore..haha..

28. Is anyone jealous of you?
-i don't know..

29. Favourite shoe that you wear all the time?
-sport shoes

30. Last song you listened to?
-I think is fifteen by taylor swift

31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
-my mum

32. What's your fav number?
-7/8

I tag: anyone who wants to do it

My "Sad" Story

2009-12-20T21:32:00.000+08:00

Remember in my previous post said I'll post up something about my sad story after SPM? Well actually its not that I have a serious emo problem again. In fact... Hmm... let me put a picture first...

Taadaa!!! My swollen thumb! Yea.. after the first week of SPM, I went to BUG on Sunday. After playing for a few minutes I got hit by someone and there goes my thumb. Therefore I have to take the following papers with this condition. Until now haven't fully recover yet. Fortunately I was able to do it without serious pain especially the first few papers. Thanks to His protection because before start doing every paper I pray to Him. =D But still, having some difficulties in doing other stuff like wearing clothes, tie my hair and etc. That time I only realise my thumb is so important. Hehe...

Animals, got feel 'zha dou' anot? Hahaha...... XD

Shark Ling

Youth Camp 2009

2009-12-19T17:38:00.001+08:00

Finally I'm back from youth camp! Woohoo~ After all the doing, staying, tiring and frustrated things, I finally can relax. =)) Well, after sitting in front of the computer, thinking how am I gonna write about things happened during this 4 days 3 nights camp, I've decided to cut short. Lazy ma...

Actually this camp, I can say its really really crazy tiring. I think its the most tiring event I've went to and organised compare to all the activities in Girl Guide and Ranger. Before went to camp I thought it will be fun and exciting, but after don't know when, I was wrong, it wasn't what I've expected, in fact some of it was way worse than I thought. Yes Kian Aun, I was very wrong, I shouldn't thank BSGC for giving us this chance to organise the camp. Hahaha. But nevermind, luckily I still had some fun. =)

On the first day, I was a very bad day, for me, cause first thing, I CANNOT show my powerpoint that I've did for a few days and hours spending time to figure it out. In the end kian aun quickly help me to edit it. Haiz..wasted my time and effort, and also my briefing sucks. Then later some rooms don't have electricity for few hours, and then heavy rain start to pour out. What a night.
Second day, electricity went out again, but luckily the weather was fine.

During team building 1, there were a lot of unhappy things happened. At my station, A LOT of people were complaining about the game. Maybe its because the game we plain got a bit of problem, but I think that that problem can be solved if everyone LISTEN and COORPERATE. I was shouting from the begining until the end of the game, was so frustrated until I don't want to say anything anymore when people are breaking the rules. I can clearly see that most of the people don't know how to have fun. Their mind are only thinking about winning. When other team break the rules, they complain to me, and when they themselves break the rules as well, the other team complain to me also. Come on la, no use complain to me ok, I've already shouting and shouting but nobody listens. That time I really feel like killing people. I even told Jonathan I want to kill him, just to release anger, haha, sorry about that. Luckily again, the next day team building 2, everything was ok. Everybody completed their tasks very very fast so in the end they had more free time.

What I like the most in this whole camp is the worship and session part. I don't know why. All along I just love the feeling that everyone quiet down and just sing to Him, tell Him anything through the lyrics. I actually shed tears in every worship sesssion. Don't know why. =)) And the session part, our pastor uncle Philip! I like to listen to his speech. It was quite interesting with the slideshows, short videos, cutting, pasting and we even got to play an interesting game. Although I was super duper tired but I still tried to listen what he says. Haha. Uncle Philip, you rock!!

At the final challenge, the alter call(correct my spelling if I'm wrong), fuh! that was really grant. CRAZY me, before uncle philip start to talk, I start to burst into tears again until everything is over. Now I know why Bernice cried last year. *I love you Ong!* A lot of people cry that moment, it was so touching. I was happy that Victor and Ah Boey answer Him. I was actually hoping to see 'some' of them answer Him too, but its ok, maybe God has better plan for them when the time comes.

P.S I'm very sad that I did not take a lot of photos in this 4 days. ='(

Amelia

S...P...M~~~ Bye~Adios~Tata~Sayonara~

2009-12-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

SPM is finally OVER people!!!!!!!!!!
finally I see 'u' no more~~~

The things that I hate besides SPM,
its still SPM!!!!!

muahahahahahahahaha....

Let me tell you why SPM is sooo...hatable..

Its sooo darn longgggg.
So many subjects, not to mention paper 1, 2 and 3!
Its during HOLIDAY! When everyone else is happily enjoying and relaxing during their precious moment, we form5 are having exam! How "NICE~". Its so not cool because it is one of the factors that I can't concentrate on studying.
A lot of nice movies came up during this time, which we cannot watch until we finish the exams.
Did not get my peaceful sleep. After a few days of exam, I start to have difficulties in sleeping. Usually, we got too tired after using too much brain juice, so we should have no problem in sleeping in anywhere and anytime. BUT, it doesn't happen to me. I was quite fresh at night. I only felt very tired in the afternoon or evening, its the total opposite.
Did not eat well. My appetites has gone wrong, I think. Sometimes I don't have appetite to eat at all, sometimes I feel like want to eat everything in this world, but most of the time I eat junk food, well, not exactly, I find food that is sweet like chocolates, ice-cream, cakes nd ect ect. Everybody says during exam we'll gain weight, the funny thing is I did not gain weight, instead I kinda lose a bit of weight. Its the opposite again. And.. and.. I always felt hungry, but when I see food I don't feel like putting the food in the mouth. Therefore, I did not eat anything. =) I always wonder is this the sign of hungry or what??? hmm....

Right now is 2.15am and I'm still blogging here at EY room. Hehe.
Few more hours to go. Pangkor, here I come.
Felt nervous and excited. =)
Wait for me to come back people.

Amelia Ling~

When I'm in the crowd, I totally forget about you. Looks like you are not important to me after all.

1 Year Old!!!

2009-12-13T20:41:00.000+08:00

Today is 13th December people.
Why am I so happy??
Because today I'm already 1 year old.
Just to tell you all,
last year's 13th Dec I've accepted Christ! At youth camp!
It's already 1 year! Haha..
But seems like nobody remember. Nvm. Syok sendiri.

Amelia

The Words.The Lyrics.The Melody.The Song.

2009-12-08T18:43:00.000+08:00

I LOVE this song!
The lyrics is just tremendously beautiful~
(How I wish I could say it out to Him.)

Amelia

I'm still alive

2009-11-24T11:38:00.000+08:00

5 more papers to go~~~
5 more days~~~

FASTER OVER!!!

so that I can relax, go camp, go here and there~~~

I'll update about my sad story after SPM. Haiz...

Amelia Ling

my love has been swept away

2009-11-14T01:20:00.000+08:00

Seconds, hours so many days~

Ahh~ everybody's getting emo now, including me. Wait, no, I should not use the word emo, I should say I'm a little troubled again, but, luckily I still can pull myself togehter and continue what I must do right now (study!). Although everytime I feel weird, awkward, feel like something is lost. I don't feel comfortable while standing there. Anyway, just pray for me? hehe~

*Girls, don't be so sad ok? I'm still at Ipoh and sure will come back to see u all. I'll miss you too, especially 3 of you!(shh...) And for some of you, please don't cry again, you want to make me cry also ar? Its not good to make DUL cry, haha. Good luck to all of you~

Amelia Ling

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2009-11-07T21:01:00.000+08:00

Wow, today was really a big surprise. To be honest, I had a wonderful both farewells in this week, really thank you very much to all my lovely juniors, they really did a great job, although it wasn't a perfect one, but it was much better then what I've expected earlier, clearly I can see that everyone of them put in a lot of effort to make it successful and also make us happy. *touched* At first I thought there's no more farewell for us, my long waited farewell, but luckily God heard us! hee~ thank You..

What can I say, it all started with crazy scream, shocking presentations with some blur cases, and of course, the silly crazy presentations. The funniest presentation is the form 3 short sketch (happy anot? I like your sketch the most), jo ee said to phui joan 经典的一句 "你好肥！(you're so fat!)", so evil~ poor phui joan, haha. On the other hand, I started to have stomach pain and wanted to vomit, but luckily I can tahan the whole day, hehe, thanks to mak teen yian for the warm water.

When the fun time was about to end, chow and I had a little surprise. Before that we were dancing on the stage then back down the hall, that time I was looking for vivien but unfortunately can't find her, then look for anjoe, then bernice, but I can't find them! I was VERY curious where did 3 of them went and not asking me along, ish! After that everyone sit down for the next show, curtain open and we saw 3 of them up there! I thought they want to sing 'No Boundaries', their favourite song, hahaha! but.. actually its not, they are introducing both of us, and appreciating us! hehehe.. No, actually is quite fish la, I still remember ma yi said "我说UL你说YO!", "我说DUL你说YO!", "UL&DUL yeng不yeng?", "UL&DUL美不美?", and one more, "我要听那个form叫最大声", Dei~ don't ever do that again ok? It perfectly ok for shireen chow but what if nobody scream when you say DUL, that time you really freaks me out you know, goodness. Well, we are really really surprise when anjoe said you've prepared 2 presents. Actually I didn't hear this sentence until chow repeated to me again and I just looked at them on the stage, I thought I heard wrongly or they're just joking, haha! In fact I'm not dreaming, it really happening, chow and me went up to stage and took the presents in a formal way, the girl guide/ranger style, woohoo~ When I took out the book and just saw the cover I was totally, completely speechless, need a few more seconds to see whether I took a wrong thing anot, hehehe. Ahh~ it was the most precious time, just wish I could slow down that moment and capture it and save it forever in my heart. <3

Today God let me see something again. He showed me that I wasn't that bad as I thought. Don't know what I'm saying? hehe.. Since last year when I started to hold this position as a Deputy Unit Leader(DUL) until now, I don't think I did a lot of things to help the rangers and girl guides, in my mind I only know that most of the things are done by shireen chow, everytime I think of it I felt very guilty and paiseh. Besides, I never think that I'm a good leader, in fact I think that others are much better than me. A lot of times I think that why not I let her to be DUL instead of me, well, I think a lot of things. =) Anyway, today I realised that there are still people who loves me and appreciate what I did, although I don't know what I did for them, but I know they're happy to see me, and of course also through the book I've read, hehe. =D Lastly, He showed me once again how lovely my animal friends are. Though I had a tough time with them a few times, but for me all the things happened had made me to be a stronger person. I don't know about them but I really love them from the bottom of my heart.

Once again I thank You, Once again I pour out my life~

Oh well, that's the end of my guiding life.
Form 1
> Start to join Girl Guide, Orchid 11th. I got the Best Recruit(Yeah!)
> First time join AMC Campfire Gathering, the GRANT one!
Form 2
> Sunflower 27th, Patrol Second(PS), my PL was Chek Mun Yee PL.
Form 3
> Orchid 16th, Patrol Leader(PL), my PS was Pong Wai Yee.
> Organised farewell party for our bloved form 5 seniors. I was happy to be chairlady.
Form 4(end of the year) & 5
> 1st Unit Ranger, Deputy Unit Leader(DUL).
> Organised both Ranger and Girl Guide camp. Advisor with chow.
> Went SMI and MC gathering. Won 1st runner up in marching and Best Dance.

I was once very committed to Girl Guide, then I lost it when form 4, then after that I found back my interest this early year. Thanks to everyone for giving me a happy ending~

These messages had made me burst into tears again, especially MaYi, the last and longest one. Everytime I think about it or I read again I cannot tahan already. =)
Why do you have to do this to me..haha..

P.S Thank you for your patience reading my LONG post!

Amelia Ling

Random

2009-11-06T17:15:00.000+08:00

Just a very simple post cause I don't know what to write.

= Very happy and touching farewell yesterday by form 4 rangers. =)
= Still want to play play and play!!
= I want holidays too~
= Haven't touch other subjects except sejarah, modern maths and add maths. (Die~)
= Sejarah still don't want to go into my brain. (Die faster~)
= Feels very very tired this whole week, stomach pain and waist pain because of...guess yourself. =D
= Suddenly love a few person very much. =)
= Wonders what will happen tomorrow?

Amelia Ling

Trust

2009-10-30T18:41:00.000+08:00

Another performance done again! Yea, today is my school AMC, Miss Tham and Miss Loo's retirement farewell,of course 5S8's 6 talented girls had a performance, and they are call WILDCHIMPZ(funny name right? Well, its just for fun). They did a good job again, everybody, maybe not everyone but most of the students screamed like mad when they came out. It was a success.

Well, for me, it was a great performance, the songs are great, lyrics, everything, but I wonder why I'm not one of the crazy fans or friends who is very excited and screaming like mad about this band, especially for my best old buddy. Today all our friends or people we know came and say its really really really a great performance, like to perfection, some even came for hugging and autographs,they are just a bunch of crazy insane fans, screaming and jumping and screaming till the end of the show, and still screaming, haha, ok maybe too much. Well,I don't feel that way and I'm still wondering...

Its not that I don't like them or whatever. I don't know, maybe she's my best buddy, I know her, although not 100% very well, let's just say I'm not surprise about the thing she's capable of already. Sometimes I think that I'm one of the luckiest person in this world because God had place her in my life, having her as the closest one somemore. Ahh~ now I only felt a little bit of His love. Although she's not a perfect friend, but its more than I've expected cause I only wanted somebody to talk to about anything, somebody that I can really trust without hesitating, so I never know I'll have a so talented friend whose having so many fans out there, hehe. Hm.. remember what I said about being a friend is a pressure, well it still does but not so much now. I used to worry a lot and a lot of things like what is she doing or thinking? am I still her bestest friend or what so ever until one day I cried, while I was talking to wan li during BUG. What a day. I know I know, silly silly me. Well, I still do think about these questions and still doubt about it sometimes, but not so care about it cause I know sometimes I was thinking too far and also we can't control a person's life. If there is really a change between our friendship, I can't stop it. God's controlling it. Whatever happens, happens. Just like some people will say "everything happens for a reason", though sometimes we don't know what the reason is.

I got to learn what God is giving or not giving me. Before that I used to blame many things to God why I don't have this and that, why I'm like other people, I hate my life until a lot of times I wanted to give up on Him cause I don't feel His presence at all, but luckily I didn't do that if not I'll be the worst daughter ever and I think I can't even forget myself that time. Right now I need to start all over again, not rushing anything, slowly see the big picture, feel and understand Him. Of course its NOT EASY to do it, for God sake I'm only 10 months old, haha, what do I know about, don't blame me for don't know anything. Nobody really teach me anything, I don't go for sunday service and sunday school, only self-learning and self-understanding, so basically its extra hard. And one more thing, I'm still not used to the life, the praying, especially the very simple praying. Yupe, don't be surprise, its true, forgive me. =)

Amelia Ling

Yo Everybody

2009-10-30T16:06:00.000+08:00

Yo every human who is reading this post, welcome to my new blog. You must be wondering why I'm changing to a new blog, well, its just because the previous blog not much function and I don't really know all the function, don't really like it. About all the posts in the old blog, just put it aside or forget about it. I think 90% is not a good memory or whatever is it, anyway, that's the old me, new me will be coming or its already coming. You'll see. You might not like it,but that's your problem, not mine. Tata.

Amelia Ling Sue Shyan

My Own World

Reality

365!

The season is here~

DAMMIT!

be grateful

FEAR

Zero

Junctions

happy birthday..to me

in needs

*Heart*

They always visits me

Word of The day

2010

Another month

Just updating

SUCKS

18102010

Falling apart

Happy~ but seriously tired...

Ipoh~

shang xin~

It's Missing

Wake up!

对不起

没那麼简单

Zero Confidence

New Chapter

Confusion..frustration..

Gettin tired and tired...

First day of College

Goodbye my dear friends

Thanks Babes!

2 weeks!

Updates

The Frog

Towards the end

Evil

谁可以真的救我？？

It's a miracle for all

Celebration~

Chow and Ong

Helpless

Big, Huge Disappointment... Again...

A joke?

Very free~

Sayonara 2009 and Hello 2010

Tagged

My "Sad" Story

Youth Camp 2009

S...P...M~~~ Bye~Adios~Tata~Sayonara~

1 Year Old!!!

The Words.The Lyrics.The Melody.The Song.

I'm still alive

my love has been swept away

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Random

Trust

Yo Everybody

Heart